Monday, February 20, 2012
Lies My Society Told Me
I think one problem with how we live our lives today is that so many people stop thinking for themselves and rely strictly on what society does about their problems. When in reality, every personal situation is different. There are several people I know who live their lives strictly based off of what cosmopolitan tells them to do, and on any given day, you can see the exact same "life quote" posted on facebook by at least three girls ages 12-22. We were given the ability to make decisions and analyze and think for ourselves... so why not do it? Here are two of these quotes/ideas that are generally accepted by society, and why I have a problem with them. Just because lately I see them more and more, and it's getting a little monotonous.
Okay, problem number one with this is that I know for a fact that many girls fake leaving a relationship just to see if the person they are with will chase after them. If you have ever done this, you're too selfish to deserve someone who will fight to get you back in the first place. It's not fair to the other person and you're playing with their emotions. So go ahead and break up. You've got some maturing to do. Second, I don't think that this is true in every situation. Yes, if someone really loves you, more than likely they will chase after you and fight for you. But maybe that guy should let you walk away, because maybe he wants to give you a chance to see what you really what you want in life. I think that some people do need time to themselves in order to truly be happy. This goes along with the quote "If you love something, let it go... If it comes back its yours, if it doesn't, it never was." Two very popular quotes that cancel each other out. Is this making sense? If not, go watch the Notebook. The third problem that I have with this is that sometimes, when someone really loves you, they'll be honest enough to tell you when you are being ridiculous. If you ever faked running away when you were little, that's what I'm talking about. Your parents probably said "Alright, go ahead, we'll see how far you get." I don't think there's anything wrong with your boyfriend telling you that you're being dramatic for running away from your relationship when it gets a little hard. Because chances are, you are being dramatic. And maybe if you're bold enough to walk away, or at least pretend that you're walking away from the relationship, it isn't what you really want. Maybe you're the one who isn't fighting for it. Just something to think about.
Stop making a fool of yourself and snap back to reality. Think logically. Be smart. It will save you a lot of grief. End rant.
- "If he doesn't chase you when you walk away, keep walking."
Okay, problem number one with this is that I know for a fact that many girls fake leaving a relationship just to see if the person they are with will chase after them. If you have ever done this, you're too selfish to deserve someone who will fight to get you back in the first place. It's not fair to the other person and you're playing with their emotions. So go ahead and break up. You've got some maturing to do. Second, I don't think that this is true in every situation. Yes, if someone really loves you, more than likely they will chase after you and fight for you. But maybe that guy should let you walk away, because maybe he wants to give you a chance to see what you really what you want in life. I think that some people do need time to themselves in order to truly be happy. This goes along with the quote "If you love something, let it go... If it comes back its yours, if it doesn't, it never was." Two very popular quotes that cancel each other out. Is this making sense? If not, go watch the Notebook. The third problem that I have with this is that sometimes, when someone really loves you, they'll be honest enough to tell you when you are being ridiculous. If you ever faked running away when you were little, that's what I'm talking about. Your parents probably said "Alright, go ahead, we'll see how far you get." I don't think there's anything wrong with your boyfriend telling you that you're being dramatic for running away from your relationship when it gets a little hard. Because chances are, you are being dramatic. And maybe if you're bold enough to walk away, or at least pretend that you're walking away from the relationship, it isn't what you really want. Maybe you're the one who isn't fighting for it. Just something to think about.
- The idea that if you try hard enough, you'll change someone.
Stop making a fool of yourself and snap back to reality. Think logically. Be smart. It will save you a lot of grief. End rant.
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Just wanted to say...
Thanks! I have only posted three entries and the number of views this page has gotten is a lot more than I ever expected it would in such a short time. I have gotten numerous facebook messages, tweets, texts and phone calls with so much support from you guys- I love knowing that the things I say mean something. So thank y'all so much for loving me and spending time reading my scatterbrained thoughts. Y'all are neat.
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
What is Love? Baby don't hurt meeee
I mainly titled this post with that line because that song is stuck in my head, but still. It's relevant. Let me just be as cliche as possible and post a blog about love on Valentine's Day.
I'm going to preface this by saying that every relationship is different. And I am not one to judge that. And let me also say that it is so important to appreciate the little things and the big things, and when you're happy about something, it's wonderful to share that. But I am so OVER the constant picture uploads, statuses, etc. about "My boyfriend is literally the best! No like seriously, look at this coke he bought me when we stopped to get gas. How sweet!? So in L0V3." Seriously? You really needed to upload a picture of that? Chances are you asked him to do so, and yeah that is sweet that he is taking on the role of your provider, but let's be real. That's a little unnecessary.
I recently saw a quote that put this into perspective for me. "A love on display is sure to fade." If you are constantly posting pictures, statuses everyday about how great your love life is etc, I am automatically convinced that it's actually not that great, and you're probably only in it for the satisfaction that comes from knowing someone is envious of you. Why do girls do this? Most of the time, anything anyone ever posts on facebook is to make everyone jealous, or to gain sympathy, or compliments. Whatever. We're human. Normal. But if you see your relationship as an opportunity to "compete" with other couples or to make other girls jealous, I think that's wrong. And you probably are too selfish to be in a relationship in the first place. Now don't get all upset, because I post things on occasion, and enjoy other posts like this sometimes too. I am a hopeless romantic and it really is wonderful to see how happy my friends are. I enjoy knowing that they're being blessed by the company and actions of another person. But there is a point where it becomes too much.
The main point I'm trying to make is that I rarely ever see anyone post about their loved ones without including what that person did for them to drive them to the point of making it a public service announcement.
And that is really sad to me. I think that our society has really put emphasis on all of the things we need to do for our significant others to gain their acceptance and love into overkill. I see more and more jewelry commercials, emails from stores saying "the perfect gift for your loved one!" and so on. And I also think this is why so many people think that they are in "love." We often mistake appreciation for what people do for us as actual love for that person. And I'm not talking about just romantic partners. This goes for friends as well. Instead of getting to know who they really are and appreciating and loving that aspect of them, which is the most important one, we find ourselves growing more and more fond of them because of their actions. And I think this is why so many relationships and even marriages fail. Taking us to dinner, the infamous "good morning :)" text, jewelry, candy, obnoxious teddy bears, flowers, all that useless crap and really only says "Hey girl, you're at least important enough for me to spend twenty bucks. You're welcome." But girls really fall for this. How pathetic. Because those same guys that are constantly giving presents and all that are usually the ones that have no idea to treat a woman in an emotional sense, so they cover it up with gifts. And the funniest thing to me is that these girls are completely aware of this. I see it all the time. I have so many friends who are with guys that are blatantly rude to them, disrespect them, and obviously do not care about them. They constantly complain about it. The girls are so unhappy with that person, but then they go on a date and all of a sudden that person hung the moon, because he has the ability to pull a debit card out of his wallet and cover the tab. Vomit. Get real. As long as you stay in a relationship that is solely rewarding you with materialistic things, you will never be happy. With my relationship, I find myself thinking how lucky I am at random times, when he has done nothing for me. Because I love who he is. Yes I like going on dates and all that, because I'm a girl, but if I didn't get that I would still be happy. I would still consider myself lucky. I would still appreciate him solely for being there and putting up with me. I can say this because I live it everyday. A long distance relationship isn't easy and it's the least rewarding in a materialistic sense. But I think that I am lucky to be in this situation, it is a constant reminder that what I feel is genuine, and not run by an appreciation for anything but him and who he is. If you can't say the same, you're wasting your time.
Another thing I find ridiculous about relationships is the amount of preparation that often goes into being around other people. If you can't turn them loose in a room full of your loved ones without giving them a run down of how to act/what to say, I hate to break it to you, but all that says to me is that deep down there's something about them that you find to be inappropriate or embarrassing. Why be with someone like that? The point of dating is not to fill a gap where another person belongs, but to find what you do and don't like in relationships, and potentially someone who you will one day marry. If that person can't be around your family when they're being themselves, why would you ever consider making them a part of your family? Blows my mind.
My last main point comes from a spiritual perspective. There's a saying that is really popular right now. "It shouldn't be about who you want to spend Friday night with, but who you want to wake up to on Saturday morning." Don't even get me started. That's terrible. I see where it's coming from, but it's terrible. I think it should be about who is sitting next to you in the pew on Sunday. "We love because He first loved us." Put God in the middle. Because you WILL NOT last if you don't. I promise. I'm not saying "I think" you won't, I'm promising you won't. It isn't genuine love without the Big Man. And that's all I have to say about that.
Be with someone who appreciates you. And I mean truly appreciates you. Be with someone who supports you, even when it is of no benefit to them. Be with someone who builds you up with not just gifts and kind words but their presence alone.
So, not to put a damper your Valentine's Day, but at least take these things into consideration. Just because the loser you're with gave you a stuffed animal, that does not mean he actually cares about you. If he doesn't make you feel special without spending money, your relationship is the equivalent of walmart. Full of crap you don't need. And nobody likes walmart.
I'm going to preface this by saying that every relationship is different. And I am not one to judge that. And let me also say that it is so important to appreciate the little things and the big things, and when you're happy about something, it's wonderful to share that. But I am so OVER the constant picture uploads, statuses, etc. about "My boyfriend is literally the best! No like seriously, look at this coke he bought me when we stopped to get gas. How sweet!? So in L0V3." Seriously? You really needed to upload a picture of that? Chances are you asked him to do so, and yeah that is sweet that he is taking on the role of your provider, but let's be real. That's a little unnecessary.
I recently saw a quote that put this into perspective for me. "A love on display is sure to fade." If you are constantly posting pictures, statuses everyday about how great your love life is etc, I am automatically convinced that it's actually not that great, and you're probably only in it for the satisfaction that comes from knowing someone is envious of you. Why do girls do this? Most of the time, anything anyone ever posts on facebook is to make everyone jealous, or to gain sympathy, or compliments. Whatever. We're human. Normal. But if you see your relationship as an opportunity to "compete" with other couples or to make other girls jealous, I think that's wrong. And you probably are too selfish to be in a relationship in the first place. Now don't get all upset, because I post things on occasion, and enjoy other posts like this sometimes too. I am a hopeless romantic and it really is wonderful to see how happy my friends are. I enjoy knowing that they're being blessed by the company and actions of another person. But there is a point where it becomes too much.
The main point I'm trying to make is that I rarely ever see anyone post about their loved ones without including what that person did for them to drive them to the point of making it a public service announcement.
And that is really sad to me. I think that our society has really put emphasis on all of the things we need to do for our significant others to gain their acceptance and love into overkill. I see more and more jewelry commercials, emails from stores saying "the perfect gift for your loved one!" and so on. And I also think this is why so many people think that they are in "love." We often mistake appreciation for what people do for us as actual love for that person. And I'm not talking about just romantic partners. This goes for friends as well. Instead of getting to know who they really are and appreciating and loving that aspect of them, which is the most important one, we find ourselves growing more and more fond of them because of their actions. And I think this is why so many relationships and even marriages fail. Taking us to dinner, the infamous "good morning :)" text, jewelry, candy, obnoxious teddy bears, flowers, all that useless crap and really only says "Hey girl, you're at least important enough for me to spend twenty bucks. You're welcome." But girls really fall for this. How pathetic. Because those same guys that are constantly giving presents and all that are usually the ones that have no idea to treat a woman in an emotional sense, so they cover it up with gifts. And the funniest thing to me is that these girls are completely aware of this. I see it all the time. I have so many friends who are with guys that are blatantly rude to them, disrespect them, and obviously do not care about them. They constantly complain about it. The girls are so unhappy with that person, but then they go on a date and all of a sudden that person hung the moon, because he has the ability to pull a debit card out of his wallet and cover the tab. Vomit. Get real. As long as you stay in a relationship that is solely rewarding you with materialistic things, you will never be happy. With my relationship, I find myself thinking how lucky I am at random times, when he has done nothing for me. Because I love who he is. Yes I like going on dates and all that, because I'm a girl, but if I didn't get that I would still be happy. I would still consider myself lucky. I would still appreciate him solely for being there and putting up with me. I can say this because I live it everyday. A long distance relationship isn't easy and it's the least rewarding in a materialistic sense. But I think that I am lucky to be in this situation, it is a constant reminder that what I feel is genuine, and not run by an appreciation for anything but him and who he is. If you can't say the same, you're wasting your time.
Another thing I find ridiculous about relationships is the amount of preparation that often goes into being around other people. If you can't turn them loose in a room full of your loved ones without giving them a run down of how to act/what to say, I hate to break it to you, but all that says to me is that deep down there's something about them that you find to be inappropriate or embarrassing. Why be with someone like that? The point of dating is not to fill a gap where another person belongs, but to find what you do and don't like in relationships, and potentially someone who you will one day marry. If that person can't be around your family when they're being themselves, why would you ever consider making them a part of your family? Blows my mind.
My last main point comes from a spiritual perspective. There's a saying that is really popular right now. "It shouldn't be about who you want to spend Friday night with, but who you want to wake up to on Saturday morning." Don't even get me started. That's terrible. I see where it's coming from, but it's terrible. I think it should be about who is sitting next to you in the pew on Sunday. "We love because He first loved us." Put God in the middle. Because you WILL NOT last if you don't. I promise. I'm not saying "I think" you won't, I'm promising you won't. It isn't genuine love without the Big Man. And that's all I have to say about that.
Be with someone who appreciates you. And I mean truly appreciates you. Be with someone who supports you, even when it is of no benefit to them. Be with someone who builds you up with not just gifts and kind words but their presence alone.
So, not to put a damper your Valentine's Day, but at least take these things into consideration. Just because the loser you're with gave you a stuffed animal, that does not mean he actually cares about you. If he doesn't make you feel special without spending money, your relationship is the equivalent of walmart. Full of crap you don't need. And nobody likes walmart.
Friday, February 10, 2012
In Five Years Time...
What an interesting topic to suggest for such a scatterbrained girl like me. Perfect. Here goes.
-In five years, I will be 24. I will have (hopefully) graduated from Auburn with my BS in Human Sciences, with a Child Life emphasis. I'll be out of college for a year and probably working somewhere with kids like I am now, while applying for jobs/internships/whatever I can get at hospitals. (I would eventually like to be a Child Life Specialist for St. Jude's... Woah dream big, I know, but I think it's possible. If I don't make it there, I'd be happy to be at any hospital that offers me the opportunity to serve.) I will probably be back in Houston, there's somethin about Texas I keep coming back to. Love Alabama, it's home, but Texas worked its way into my heart. At this point in life I will have experienced most of my "growing up" life lessons and also, hopefully, have my ducks in a row. But knowing me, probs not. I would like to be in a committed relationship, if not engaged and planning my perfect southern plantation wedding. I know that that seems cliche, I don't care. It's my dream, I'll be in love if I want to. Anyway. At this age I will still be able to take advantage of my mom's benefits with Continental, so I expect that as soon as I graduate I'll be all over the place. It is very important to me that in some point in life I take the opportunity to travel the world by myself. And I know that most people say that, but I'm serious. For real y'all, I'm doin it.
Now for what really matters.
Yes I need a job, yes I want to get married, yes I'm going to travel. But these are the important things I want for myself in five years.
-I want to be a giver. Since birth, I've been a taker. "Mom, I need money. Dad, fix my bike. Bubby, will you drive me to my friends house...now please. Dan, what the heck is wrong with this computer?" On and on and on. When I'm 24 I'll hope I'll at least be independent enough to take care of myself, but I'd really love to be able to finally start giving back all that has been given to me. Yes I do community service, and give my friends rides places, and actually now that I think about it, I probably do a favor for one of my friends at least twice a day. And even though it can at times be stressful to be the one that people call for help, I wouldn't change a thing. It's just hard being a college student, with such limited time and finances, and give like I'd like to. So, I hope by this time I can be the giver I feel that I was made to be. Financially, emotionally, time wise, all that.
-I want to be a lover. I love my family. I love all my friends. I love my sisters. I love my boyfriend. I love people I barely know and I love all the randos I meet on a daily basis. But does that really make me a lover? When people think about me, do they associate me with the word love? Do I love others more than myself? And is it an honest, unbiased, truly love-based love? Or is it a selfish love, knowing that if I show that I care, they will do the same? I don't know. So I hope that in five years, I've gotten over any selfishness I might have deep down and love without wondering if I'll ever get it back in return.
-I want to be an example. I am only nineteen, and even though I feel so old and mature, I know that I am still getting started. I know that there are girls in high school and maybe even my age that look up to me, but I hope that in five years I'm not just a role model, but an example. Because I think there's a difference. A role model is someone who's got their own thing going on, but still a good person, and you can try to be like them, but tailor it to who you are too. An example is an exact display of how something should be. It's just about as perfect as it gets. I do think I'm a good person and I think I'm a good role model. But does that make me an example? I don't think so. But if it does, who am I an example of to others? Myself? That's kinda scary, seeing as I have just recently learned who that is... I hope in five years I'm an example of a Christ, the best that I can be, and not just myself. Because He is perfection. I wanna be a God fearing, smile wearing, cupcake baking, classy southern woman. An example for the children to come in the next few years. Not just a role model.
Now I'm not sure if any of this made sense to y'all, but it does to me. And I hope that when someone asks you where you want to be in five years, you know more about where you want to be in terms of heart and not success... I hope you have more planned than a job and an apartment to yourself. I hope you know what kind of person you want to be. Because that's what's going to get you somewhere in life, and more importantly, that's what will inspire others.
Thursday, February 9, 2012
The Modern Christian
--If you know me, you know that I love Jesus. I love talkin to Him, talkin about Him, and I love listenin to Him. But, if you know me, you also know that I love just about every other aspect of a nineteen year old's life. I don't see much harm in going to the bar with my friends on the weekend. I like a good dirt road country song and prancing around on the beach in my bathing suit with the ruffles- who doesn't love a few ruffles? But what I really can't stand is the line that seems to be drawn between this image of church life, and "real" life. Why do we go to church to act like someone we aren't, when God takes us for who we are? I don't like how families I knew so well growing up acted when I saw them at church, all cross legged in the pew smiling like it was their birthday, but at home they were in their PJs, yelling and bickering over who liked their bacon crispy, and who liked it floppy. Yes, floppy. Why is there this awkward feeling about seeing church members you don't know well in public? I recently saw someone I grew up going to church with while out one weekend. (Now I wasn't best friends with them or anything growing up, but normally if I would have seen them in public there would have been a good five minute conversation or so.) I was not drinking, and they didn't appear to be either, yet when I went up to start conversation there was an awkward "Hey, so good to see you! Hope you're doing well!" Followed by another awkward scamper off into the other direction. This confused me to no extent. I know the bar isn't the most holy of all places but is it honestly that frowned upon by society for a Christian to be in a bar? If so, I cannot express how deeply saddened I am by what our society has made the idea of a Christian to be. So here's where I share what I claim to be.
--I am far from perfect. I catch myself daily thinking "Did I really just say that?" (And y'all, I don't really say things that I don't mean.) I go out on the weekends. I talk about people. People talk about me. And frankly, I often give them things to talk about. But that doesn't necessarily mean I'm doing something wrong, and even if I am, I can promise I don't live in regret about it. Wanna know why? Because I'm loved by a God that already forgave me from day one. I've stepped far beyond His plan for my life, but He knew I'd do that. He's not surprised by me. Disappointed daily, yes. But not surprised. What right do I have to dwell in regret when the One who stitched the very fiber of my being says over and over again: "You're forgiven. It's done. Now get on with your life. You have more mistakes to make, and I've got more forgiving to do. Don't hold up the process." It is ridiculous for me to think back on my life and think about everything I've done wrong. I learned recently that it's also ridiculous to keep the people in my life who bring up my past actions in a manner that is intended to put me down. (I'm more than willing to talk about my life, any mistake I've made, and how I've learned from it. I'd be excited to share it with you, actually. That's what the power of His love is about.) Who are those people to hold against me what the Lord has put His blood on? UMM, bye. Nice knowin ya! Sorry I am no longer sorry. They're irrelevant to your life. Your happiness, your future, your sense of self.
--I don't go to church every Sunday, but I make it on occasion. I say prayers about my family, my relationships, my friends, people I don't know, people I barely know, the Toomer's trees, and even Bammers sometimes. Cause I know a few good ones. I sure as hell am not going to stand on a street corner screaming hellfire damnation and telling gay people that God doesn't love them, because He does. He loves them. Shut up about saying He doesn't. Sidenote: As a lover of Christ, it's your job to stand up and say what you're for, not what you're against. That can come later, and it's between that person and the Lord. You are called to share the love of Christ. NOW DO IT. Bottom line. Now I'm not sayin' go out, get drunk, do whatever you feel like doin. I'm not telling you to run around screamin "N0 RegREt$!!!" That's redic. What I'm sayin is that I know that some things I do are wrong, but I'm working on it. I'm not ignoring the fact that I'm sinning, they're habits, and I'm working on it. I think that God can appreciate that. He knows I'm human. He made me that way. "God loves you just the way you are, but loves you too much to leave you that way." I feel Him tuggin at me, and I'm working on it.
--One very special lady in my life has often come to me in times that I most needed her. It's funny though, because I've rarely gone to her first, telling her my problems, asking what I should do next, seeing what she thinks God is telling me to do. She is time and time again proof to me that God speaks through people. But anyway, one summer I had the blessing of spending lots and lots of time with her. Coincidentally, that summer I also had a lot of second guessing with who I was. I was going through so many changes, and so unsure of what I believed. I flat out will tell you that I doubted God's love for me. I'm sure most everyone has done this at some point, if not often. One day we were at an event together, and during some down time she came over, with that sweet look I knew so well and took me in her arms. "It's the same as it was. I feel like that's what God is telling me to tell you. It's the same as it was." Wow. Boom. There it is. Done. After hearing that, it is impossible for me to doubt His love, because it IS the same as it was. It will always be the same as it was, from the minute He gives us life. It is all consuming, all powerful, unbiased, unwavering, unconditionally powerful and it is fighting for your acceptance.
--The point is that I recognize that God's love for me surpasses anything I'll ever understand. And quite frankly I think it's absolutely mind blowing how some are ashamed of the love of Jesus Christ. I just don't comprehend it! Somebody died for me? Is that forreal? Uh, yes I'm going to make sure everyone knows. How freakin' cool. It is absolutely mind blowing how in all of His perfection, so many are ashamed of Him, yet in all of our sin, He chooses to say "That one is mine." What on earth? Again, are you forreal? What a powerful, unwavering, merciful love we are given. Whatever it is that's holding you back from the love of God- you're making it up. It's not reality. Reality is that God is holding you right now, and it's time to accept that you're better than your actions. They aren't who you are. They're who you've been. Who you are is His. I don't care what kind of beer you drink, what you did this weekend, what you're plannin to do next weekend, what your favorite song is, who your baby daddy is, whatever. You're His. And that's really all there is to it.
--I am far from perfect. I catch myself daily thinking "Did I really just say that?" (And y'all, I don't really say things that I don't mean.) I go out on the weekends. I talk about people. People talk about me. And frankly, I often give them things to talk about. But that doesn't necessarily mean I'm doing something wrong, and even if I am, I can promise I don't live in regret about it. Wanna know why? Because I'm loved by a God that already forgave me from day one. I've stepped far beyond His plan for my life, but He knew I'd do that. He's not surprised by me. Disappointed daily, yes. But not surprised. What right do I have to dwell in regret when the One who stitched the very fiber of my being says over and over again: "You're forgiven. It's done. Now get on with your life. You have more mistakes to make, and I've got more forgiving to do. Don't hold up the process." It is ridiculous for me to think back on my life and think about everything I've done wrong. I learned recently that it's also ridiculous to keep the people in my life who bring up my past actions in a manner that is intended to put me down. (I'm more than willing to talk about my life, any mistake I've made, and how I've learned from it. I'd be excited to share it with you, actually. That's what the power of His love is about.) Who are those people to hold against me what the Lord has put His blood on? UMM, bye. Nice knowin ya! Sorry I am no longer sorry. They're irrelevant to your life. Your happiness, your future, your sense of self.
--I don't go to church every Sunday, but I make it on occasion. I say prayers about my family, my relationships, my friends, people I don't know, people I barely know, the Toomer's trees, and even Bammers sometimes. Cause I know a few good ones. I sure as hell am not going to stand on a street corner screaming hellfire damnation and telling gay people that God doesn't love them, because He does. He loves them. Shut up about saying He doesn't. Sidenote: As a lover of Christ, it's your job to stand up and say what you're for, not what you're against. That can come later, and it's between that person and the Lord. You are called to share the love of Christ. NOW DO IT. Bottom line. Now I'm not sayin' go out, get drunk, do whatever you feel like doin. I'm not telling you to run around screamin "N0 RegREt$!!!" That's redic. What I'm sayin is that I know that some things I do are wrong, but I'm working on it. I'm not ignoring the fact that I'm sinning, they're habits, and I'm working on it. I think that God can appreciate that. He knows I'm human. He made me that way. "God loves you just the way you are, but loves you too much to leave you that way." I feel Him tuggin at me, and I'm working on it.
--One very special lady in my life has often come to me in times that I most needed her. It's funny though, because I've rarely gone to her first, telling her my problems, asking what I should do next, seeing what she thinks God is telling me to do. She is time and time again proof to me that God speaks through people. But anyway, one summer I had the blessing of spending lots and lots of time with her. Coincidentally, that summer I also had a lot of second guessing with who I was. I was going through so many changes, and so unsure of what I believed. I flat out will tell you that I doubted God's love for me. I'm sure most everyone has done this at some point, if not often. One day we were at an event together, and during some down time she came over, with that sweet look I knew so well and took me in her arms. "It's the same as it was. I feel like that's what God is telling me to tell you. It's the same as it was." Wow. Boom. There it is. Done. After hearing that, it is impossible for me to doubt His love, because it IS the same as it was. It will always be the same as it was, from the minute He gives us life. It is all consuming, all powerful, unbiased, unwavering, unconditionally powerful and it is fighting for your acceptance.
--The point is that I recognize that God's love for me surpasses anything I'll ever understand. And quite frankly I think it's absolutely mind blowing how some are ashamed of the love of Jesus Christ. I just don't comprehend it! Somebody died for me? Is that forreal? Uh, yes I'm going to make sure everyone knows. How freakin' cool. It is absolutely mind blowing how in all of His perfection, so many are ashamed of Him, yet in all of our sin, He chooses to say "That one is mine." What on earth? Again, are you forreal? What a powerful, unwavering, merciful love we are given. Whatever it is that's holding you back from the love of God- you're making it up. It's not reality. Reality is that God is holding you right now, and it's time to accept that you're better than your actions. They aren't who you are. They're who you've been. Who you are is His. I don't care what kind of beer you drink, what you did this weekend, what you're plannin to do next weekend, what your favorite song is, who your baby daddy is, whatever. You're His. And that's really all there is to it.
Something New
So. We're gonna try this blogging thing out. I have always loved writing- there is a freedom found in it that is matched by very few things in life. I've found facebook and twitter to be annoying because of the negative feedback often found if one posts something even the slightest bit opinionated... people get "offended" by opinions. How funny. Well, again, this is just my opinion, and by all means, please don't get offended by it... but it only takes a second to defriend, unsubscribe, or unfollow me if my thoughts are THAT outrageous and offensive. Since people are too lazy to do even that, I'm thinking I'm safe here on this blog, where it takes at least three or four seconds to click the link or copy and paste into the search bar. Join me if you'd like :)
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