-In five years, I will be 24. I will have (hopefully) graduated from Auburn with my BS in Human Sciences, with a Child Life emphasis. I'll be out of college for a year and probably working somewhere with kids like I am now, while applying for jobs/internships/whatever I can get at hospitals. (I would eventually like to be a Child Life Specialist for St. Jude's... Woah dream big, I know, but I think it's possible. If I don't make it there, I'd be happy to be at any hospital that offers me the opportunity to serve.) I will probably be back in Houston, there's somethin about Texas I keep coming back to. Love Alabama, it's home, but Texas worked its way into my heart. At this point in life I will have experienced most of my "growing up" life lessons and also, hopefully, have my ducks in a row. But knowing me, probs not. I would like to be in a committed relationship, if not engaged and planning my perfect southern plantation wedding. I know that that seems cliche, I don't care. It's my dream, I'll be in love if I want to. Anyway. At this age I will still be able to take advantage of my mom's benefits with Continental, so I expect that as soon as I graduate I'll be all over the place. It is very important to me that in some point in life I take the opportunity to travel the world by myself. And I know that most people say that, but I'm serious. For real y'all, I'm doin it.
Now for what really matters.
Yes I need a job, yes I want to get married, yes I'm going to travel. But these are the important things I want for myself in five years.
-I want to be a giver. Since birth, I've been a taker. "Mom, I need money. Dad, fix my bike. Bubby, will you drive me to my friends house...now please. Dan, what the heck is wrong with this computer?" On and on and on. When I'm 24 I'll hope I'll at least be independent enough to take care of myself, but I'd really love to be able to finally start giving back all that has been given to me. Yes I do community service, and give my friends rides places, and actually now that I think about it, I probably do a favor for one of my friends at least twice a day. And even though it can at times be stressful to be the one that people call for help, I wouldn't change a thing. It's just hard being a college student, with such limited time and finances, and give like I'd like to. So, I hope by this time I can be the giver I feel that I was made to be. Financially, emotionally, time wise, all that.
-I want to be a lover. I love my family. I love all my friends. I love my sisters. I love my boyfriend. I love people I barely know and I love all the randos I meet on a daily basis. But does that really make me a lover? When people think about me, do they associate me with the word love? Do I love others more than myself? And is it an honest, unbiased, truly love-based love? Or is it a selfish love, knowing that if I show that I care, they will do the same? I don't know. So I hope that in five years, I've gotten over any selfishness I might have deep down and love without wondering if I'll ever get it back in return.
-I want to be an example. I am only nineteen, and even though I feel so old and mature, I know that I am still getting started. I know that there are girls in high school and maybe even my age that look up to me, but I hope that in five years I'm not just a role model, but an example. Because I think there's a difference. A role model is someone who's got their own thing going on, but still a good person, and you can try to be like them, but tailor it to who you are too. An example is an exact display of how something should be. It's just about as perfect as it gets. I do think I'm a good person and I think I'm a good role model. But does that make me an example? I don't think so. But if it does, who am I an example of to others? Myself? That's kinda scary, seeing as I have just recently learned who that is... I hope in five years I'm an example of a Christ, the best that I can be, and not just myself. Because He is perfection. I wanna be a God fearing, smile wearing, cupcake baking, classy southern woman. An example for the children to come in the next few years. Not just a role model.
Now I'm not sure if any of this made sense to y'all, but it does to me. And I hope that when someone asks you where you want to be in five years, you know more about where you want to be in terms of heart and not success... I hope you have more planned than a job and an apartment to yourself. I hope you know what kind of person you want to be. Because that's what's going to get you somewhere in life, and more importantly, that's what will inspire others.
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